Monday, 6 October 2014

Don't ask me to remember?

I get a funny feeling when I look into your eyes.




Not so long ago?

I'm in my car on my way to visit my  Auntie, something I do when ever I can.

I drive along the Geelong road and two miles south of Geelong I turn right up a familiar road, to the clinic. 
I see her sitting outside in the shade of the blue gum trees, there's a gentle breeze blowing, it's blowing through her hair, giving me a gentle glimpse  of my Auntie, as she used to be?
when she was there?

She is touching the top of the table, her fingers gliding smoothly across the plastic table top, looking intently down at what! something only she can see.? it's not for you or me.

I sit and take her hand and she looks up at me,
I say "Hallo Princess how are you today"?
She looks straight up at me and I can see,
She just doesn't remember me?  

I tell her of our life together and all the things we did, and all about the holidays we had, as I do on every visit.
"Aunt Nancy we had good times and I still love you true."

She said:
"I don't think this can be true?
Although I get a funny feeling when I look into your eyes, there seems to be something in your smile that gives me butterflies, you must look like someone I once knew?
But I'm terrible terrible sorry! cause" " I don't remember knowing you".

I stand up from the table and turn to say good bye, she just looks up at me and I can see, already.
She has forgotten me !

The nurse comes to me to say "I'm sorry there's no change" today.
I turn and walk away, there's nothing more to say," I will be back when I can, thank you for looking out for my Auntie, she means the world to me",

I wander back to my car across a lovely green lawn and I think to myself, maybe this isn't such a bad place for my Aunt Nancy  to be! when you consider.
"She doesn't remember me?"

Don't ask me to remember?
Don't try to make me understand?
Let me rest and know you're with me,
Kiss my cheek and hold my hand.

I'm confused beyond your knowing,
I'm sad and sick and lost.
All I know is that I need you,
to be near me at any cost.

Do not lose your patience with me,
do not scold at me and curse and cry.
I can't help the way I'm acting
even though I try.

Just remember that I need you, need you!
the best of me is gone.
Please don't fail to stand beside me?

Love me? till my life has gone.

Dear Aunt Nancy your memory will always live in us Mick / Terence.



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